no need to slip back into negativity, just have to be happy with who i am (sure wanting to improve can be a good thing, but i need to be less harsh on myself than i have been in the past).
I mean sure, i could wish i was better at certain things, or had done stuff differently than i did, but whats the point really.
I think i've discovered something really important, ME time. Finding some time now and then to do something i really enjoy and that relaxes me. Recently i've been going down to the basketball courts near the UQ pool in the affternoon for maybe an hour or so. Its so simple, its just me and the ball and the hoop. Thats it. No need to think about anything else, its just properly relaxing, something i certainly haven't had enough of this year. Its just really important to have a little bit of a getaway place like that, otherwise you can just get weighed down constantly by uni work, work work, personnel things etc etc, and that is certainly something i didn't have last semester, which probably added to the reason i was almost always struggling.
One nagging thing though is i think i find it really hard to open myself up to people, and to communicate that with them, which is perhaps why i'm not really close to many people at all. Also i'm not the most talkative person anymore (if i ever was).
Anyway sif, i just have to be a little happier with who i am and just have a bit of confidence in myself.
Cos as someone said to me, you fail at 100% of the things you don't try!
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